THERE IS LIGHT IN RUSSIA: IN RUSSIA I WISH TO FIND ACCEPTANCE OF MY STIGMA.
Since certain personages in the control center/ trial want me dead, they have programed the computer to which my thoughts are interfaced to remotely control me to maintain myself in a perpetual suicidal mood.(The actual situation inside the trial is in fact far more convoluted, but I don't need to discuss that to make my point. I don't really know.) As I have noted, the computer has been remotely controlling me to run into frustrating circumstances almost daily, in order to gradually wear out my will to live. But, to maintain me in a suicidal mood, the computer some times doesn't need to do more than keep me aware that I am being remotely controlled every second of my life. As I have said, the purpose of this mind-control system is to conclude a trial, to make me and all the people I'm in contact with (and more people beyond) produce evidences for our unwilling (and often unknowing) participation in a criminal conspiracy of some Western elites to harm Russia (and its new allies) so that Russia (and its new allies) may get compensated through the International Court system. Every day when I wake up, I will be remotely controlled to waste my time running here and there for nothing, to read this and that book, to surf onto this and that website, to formulate this and that plan for oversea traveling, to meet this and that person, to get rejected by this and that new friend, to be detained by police and security guards for this and that stupid reason, to get provoked by this and that vagrant, to feel tormented by simple noises and movement of people and machine malfunctioning, to think thoughts and feel feelings which I don't want to think and feel, all in order to produce the evidences needed to benefit some foreign countries I have never been to. I get no breaks, no rewards, and no pays; it's a full time job, or total slavery. The knowledge that I have to run around every day to do someone else's work and are only allowed to make friends and meet new people to the extent that this may produce the evidences needed to benefit those foreign nations, makes me understand that my life is really not worth living. Then there is the painful realization that this computer in the control center has already decided what my future life will be like, and that I'm here only to discover what the computer has planned for me. This computer – or rather those who have programed it – is thus my God. It's depressing that this “God” over me turns out to be just a computer which has been programed by a bunch of human beings who cannot be trusted because, although they have the power of God, they have neither the compassion nor the wisdom of God. Don't get me wrong: the leading nation of those nations which are benefiting from my suffering is Russia, and I like it when Russia wins. It's just that I want to die also, because there is nothing else in it for me.
The most painful part of this ordeal is that I can't really talk about it with anybody. The unfairness of enslavement to do someone else's work and to experience pain for someone else's benefits through the microchip inside my head has become the most dominant theme in my consciousness; I think about it every second of my waking life, almost. Every second, when I'm doing something, I think about how what I'm doing now is what I have been remotely controlled to do for someone else's benefit and not for my own, and is what I have not the choice to not do. The pain I'm experiencing can be considerably eased if I'm living with someone, or am constantly with someone, to whom I can confide the constant flow of my interpretation as to why I'm remotely controlled to do what I'm doing and by whom. And yet I'm alone most of the time. I attend a variety of meetings and support groups for targeted individuals, but no one I meet there has the education or intellect to understand the kind of mind-control experience I'm describing here. They can only understand the most rudimentary form of mind-control technology and the simplest kind of sadistic victimization which does not involve factions, international laws, and geopolitics. Do you remember the movie “Europa Europa”? The Jewish boy in that movie lives in Nazi Germany and has to hide his Jewish identity in order to survive. He carries a stigma which he can never tell others about it. He lives in a poisonous environment, even though everybody loves him because everyone believes he is a pure and brave Aryan. He is unhappy because he has to hide himself in order to be liked. The love which the German people have for him becomes more and more a torture for him. Gradually, all he wants to do is tell another person that he is really Jewish. He finally tells a German soldier who is safe because the man is gay and likes him and will not turn him in. When you carry a stigma, the most important thing is to be able to tell others about it and get accepted by them nevertheless. Otherwise you will gradually eat yourself up.
Talking about a trauma is in itself a form of therapy! A healing process. Next to this, if you ever want to get help – if I ever want to extract the microchip – I would have to tell my helper about it, right? But talking about it is the most difficult thing I'm faced with at the moment.
All the people I know are clandestinely microchipped because of me, and to most of them I simply cannot explain that they have been microchipped, and why they have been microchipped. I can't even talk about microchipping with the other people in my life who are similarly microchipped because the control center/ the court has decided not to let other victims of its microchipping know about it while it constantly makes me know about it! And yet unless the control center tells them, they will never believe that they are microchipped and controlled! The story is just too far off. It sounds too much like science fiction movie and not like reality: one day, the “control center” secretly microchips, right in their brain, a significant portion of a given society and brings them under the remote control of a giant computer in the “control center”. All the victims are now being remotely controlled by the computer to live out a life which the computer has predetermined for them, without anybody noticing it anything at all. Only one person among them all wakes up to the truth, and he tells everyone that everyone is microchipped and no one takes him seriously. How can this be real? Furthermore, the “control center” is not the government, even though it is built by the government. This is not some sort of secret government experimentation nor is it the precursor of “New World Order” – the only things which my targeted individuals support group can understand as the causes of microchipping. Rather, it is done as part of a secret trial, which requires that a significant portion of the American and NATO population be microchipped and remotely controlled to participate, without knowing so, in a criminal conspiracy of Western elites to harm Russia and its new allies so that Russia can be compensated for being so harmed. The very purpose of this trial, in other words, is to prosecute the “New World Order”. There are two problems. Firstly, most of the social circumstances I can find myself with others in America simply don't offer the atmosphere where this kind of talk is appropriate. I will have to go out of my way to find a social setting where this kind of discussion is normal – such as during my targeted individuals' meetings. But then I run into the second problem, which is that nobody is intellectual and educated enough to be able to understand what I'm saying, let alone believe this. In other words, I have a stigma, worst than hermaphroditism or being Jewish in Nazi Germany, because, even when I have the courage to tell someone about my stigma, no one is going to understand it. At least everyone understands what a hermaphrodite is and everyone in Nazi Germany knows what is a Jew.
I hope you can somewhat see the problem. All the talk out there on the Internet about mind-control and microchipping technology only gives you a glimpse into the most rudimentary forms, not into this most extreme form which is my experience; nobody has so far comprehended the ultimate goal of US and NATO governments' mind-control technology, which is to bring human thoughts themselves under centralized administration, and to rid the common people of their free will once and for all. The existing talk which has hinted at this technology is horrifyingly optimistic; it is harmful in that it diverts your attention away from the harm it can do to you by emphasizing its benefits in a limited number of cases. Read the time line of the evolution of mind-control technology in this article:
http://www.harmlesswise.com/0706-implantable-chips. It mentions, for example: “2004: Matthew Nagle, a 25-year-old quadriplegic, is the first human fitted with the BrainGate Neural Interface. It enables him to control a computer 'mouse' cursor and press its button.” As if this technology is going to do us so much good! The microchip inside my head allowing me to be forcibly interfaced with the computer in the control center operates essentially by the same principle as this BrainGate Neural Interface. While the microchip allows the computer to read my thoughts by picking up the pattern of electrical activities in my brain, it can also allow the computer to remotely control me by artificially inducing the pattern of electrical activities in my brain which correspond to the actions or thoughts which the computer wants me to perform or think. Yet this is nothing funny or beneficial. For I have now lost the ability to determine my own actions but have become a puppet of another being. And yet you cannot comprehend the horror of this loss of free will because most of you have never learned the skill of learning something new from your peers but can only incorporate new knowledge and a new way of looking at things from the authority – and only after the authority has tremendously simplified the issue for you. That's how hopelessly stupid you ordinary people are – even when you listen regularly to a man whom you think to be a guru (like Alex Jones).
To understand what I have been through – and to understand what your own government has once been planning to do to you, although it is now unlikely to do it to you thanks to this trial I'm caught in – you have to learn a new way of looking at reality. Ordinary people can only learn from their peers those things they already know or things which are compatible with what they already know. When I tell the organizer of my targeted individuals support group about how my thoughts are read and my actions remotely controlled via the microchip inside my head, she assumes that I'm “V2K”. She never understands anything I say – even though she herself seems to have been microchipped in the head thanks to her association with me – because “microchipping to allow for government's central administration of your thoughts” is not anything like what she already knows; nor can she ever understand “a secret International Court trial”. She gains her knowledge of “targeting” and “implants” from the “talk out there” which, like I have said, barely scratches the surface of the mind-control issues: those chatter about mind-control on the Internet and in the targeted individuals community has never gone anywhere near “central administration of thoughts” and “destruction of free will” and has never gone beyond the model of “victimization” and “experimentation”. Yet the “talk out there” is what has determined what she is, and what you are, capable of understanding and believing. “Victimization”, “experimentation”, “implant to track you”, “energy weapons to cause you pain” constitute her “paradigm”, “what she already knows”, and this “paradigm”, her way of looking at reality, does not contain anything more complicated, like “remotely controlling you like a robot”. Anything I told her which is more complicated would have to be distorted into one of those simple things in this paradigm, like “Voice to Skull to annoy you”, otherwise she could not even conceive it.
This is all very sad for she will never one day comprehend what has happened to her. She will never one day understand how she has been victimized – just as a cow in the factory farm never understands why he is being cramped into such a uncomfortable space and burned and beaten and then slaughtered. To understand why he suffers, the cow will have to understand human economy, the division of labor in human society, and how human beings produce food to support this complex division of labor. How can the cow understand that? The “talk out there” has simply not prepared the minority among us who are interested in “weird things” in the first place for the real, serious agendas of the Western elites. Despite your confidence, the “conspiracy theorists” have hardly comprehended what the Western elites are really planning to do to you. The “elites” have always been right when they say “common people are too stupid to understand what are their best interests”, even though the “elites” are lying when they say “We should therefore rule them for their own good”.
And yet, I have premonition that, if I go to Russia, for about 1 out of 100 persons there, this story of “a secret International Court trial which requires people to be microchipped” just like “the US-NATO plan to microchip every person and bring him or her under a central computer's remote control” will not appear strange at all – because the Russian government has told them about this trial since 2010. This is what I'm talking about: in Russia a discussion about my mind-control experience might actually not be out of place in a large number of social circumstances and might actually not fly over people's head by demanding from them a new way of looking at reality – this thanks to the efforts which the Russian government may have already spent in sowing the seeds of this weird story in the consciousness of ordinary people who otherwise can never have imagined “microchipping to make all human beings remotely controlled robots”. The Russian government, I suppose, has however informed only a selected portion of its people, foremost the military and security (police) personnel, then other public personnel of the governmental machinery, and perhaps a small portions of private citizens and workers and executives of relevant businesses. I would calculate the number of these people to be approximately 1.5 million – about 1 out of 100 persons in Russia. I don't suppose the Russian government has got into the details, but it would have at least told these people that “there is this secret bizarre trial in the International Court in which Russia is caught and where, if Russia loses, Putin may be microchipped in the head to allow some criminals in America to remotely control him like a robot – and nobody will notice it, which tells you how powerful this microchipping system is.” The Russian government may have also mentioned that a lot of people around the world, especially in countries of the Western alliance, have been microchipped in the same way in order to facilitate the course of this trial. Actually, a significant portion of the public personnel and military officers in China should also have been told about this, although they would constitute far less than 1 percent of the Chinese population. Actually, a significant portion of the US military personnel should also have been told about this. I think LAPD and SFPD also have some knowledge of this. Governments in countries like Iran and India should also have done the same as the Russian government.
Do you understand what I'm saying? I can at last openly speak about my stigma with a significant portion of the population without running into the problem that no one understands what I'm saying. I may very well find people to whom I can say, “Oh, my biggest concern is that I am caught in this trial which causes me to be microchipped; this trial where your country is involved”, and they might just respond, “Oh yeah, I have heard about that! You are being controlled by a computer right? That's awful!” I will at last be on the same page with others! I will no longer have to live in a reality which no one else has access to, as if I were autistic! They may even refer me to a doctor to extract the microchip for me! But, if I go to Russia, the people I would have regular access to will of course only be the lower end of the people who have been told about me. That is, petty officers of the civilian and military wings of the Russian government. The Russian military personnel I will be able to talk to about me will be mostly young conscripts; together with police officers or low level government functionaries, these are not the people who are capable of any sort of in-depth understanding of my extraordinary experience. I may be able to hang with career low level military officers, who can probably understand something. Given all this there thus arises the need for me to introduce the matter into academic discourses, to bring it to the attention of professors and scholars who have the intelligence and education to understand the details of my experience. That will be my next goal: to infuse “my reality” into the collective consciousness of humankind. The problem is that I cannot do this by myself. I will need the help of Russian authority. The problem is that UN has passed laws to require that governments around the world keep this trial a secret for themselves; the Russian government has done the limited disclosure in its territory only as an exceptional and emergency measure. Assuming that those who have so far been told about my story will be permitted to tell me what they have been told about me – this is not even certain – if I wish to go beyond these inexpert audience but have to do it myself without official help, I will run into the same problem as I have been running into in the Western world.
Like I have said, if you are reading this, besides not understanding anything I say here, you probably are not going to take me seriously – because I'm just one private person without the backing of official organs. When the government – any government in the world – tells you the same thing I'm telling you here, then you will pay attention, and this “secret trial which requires so many people to be microchipped and remotely controlled by a super computer” will suddenly register in your head, whether or not you are a conspiracy theorist who distrusts the government or a main-stream citizen who believes anything the authority says. This is simply a sad fact of modern life: in the modern world people have shaped their belief system to attune themselves to “official organs” rather than to their peers. Only a very few private persons have had the talent and aggression to develop an information empire capable of competing with official organs in the game of shaping people's belief system – like Alex Jones here. Yet even someone like Alex Jones can only capture the attention of a minority of people who are naturally inclined to like “weird things”, not everyone. If you are just a ordinary private person, having neither the backing of official organs nor the resources which Alex Jones for example has built up over many years, then, you can only get people's attention for what you say when you speak about something they already believe. Since what I'm telling you here goes beyond your wildest imagination – beyond your current “paradigm” – it is hopeless for me to convince you of the truthfulness – and importance – of any part of my story.
To tell my story I will thus need to obtain the sponsorship of “official organs”. Remember that my first goal is to find some “official organs” which have already been circulating parts of my story in the public domain and then cut into the game. The fact that the official organs in Russia (and possibly other countries outside the Western block) have already been registering in the mind of a selected minority of its population elements of what has happened to me thus attracts me to this land. Russia remains the best option, not just because of this, but also in view of my second goal: obtaining the help of authority in introducing my story into specialized and expert discussion in academia. This might be possible because it would just not make sense for Putin to keep the knowledge of this trial away from the consciousness of his people, insofar as what is being tried is nothing short of Western elites' one-time project to exterminate the Russian state. A nationalist like him should have the desire to warn his people about some foreigners' desires to harm their country. The only obstacle to his wish would be the aforementioned international laws forbidding him to do so. And yet he may very well have found ways to overcome these laws. Thus, I may not have to do this (the propagation of my story among better audience) all by myself if I end up in Russia! China is the next best option; but not only are the percentage of people who know about this in China much lower, but the Chinese government has always been characteristically conservative when it comes to revealing its embarrassing moments to its people – even if it doesn't purposely lie to its people as often and as pervasively as Western governments do to their people. Obama is even less likely to reveal it: for to reveal it means that the Chinese government and Obama would have to tell their people that many Chinese government officials and Obama himself have once been microchipped in the head to be made into some American criminals' personal remotely controlled robots. Too embarrassing!
ABSTRACT OF THE TRIAL TO WHICH I AM REFERING, OR THE CAUSE OF MY MIND CONTROL SUFFERING: When I flew to China and then over Russia in late 2007 and early 2008 a dispute arose in the International Court of Justice between Russia/China and United States/Western nations over intentional false information which the US government has shared with the Chinese and Russian government about me – about who I am and what I do and so on – in clear violation of international agreements. The US government won the lawsuit by proving that I was intentionally flying to China to allow China to sue the US over the US false information about me. China lost and Russia withdrew. The US government raised the same lawsuit again with the Russian government in the International Court in September 2008. (Technically speaking this was a lawsuit between the CIA and the Russian intelligence service SVR.) By the time Russia has won the lawsuit in February 2010, the parties in the lawsuit have all changed. The US government has split up, with Obama administration siding with Russia to prosecute, as common criminals planning a criminal conspiracy to harm United States, China, and Russia, the few US officials who have raised the lawsuit on CIA's behalf against Russia in the first place. Furthermore, by that time, a few European nations have joined these “common criminals” to fight the new alliance of US, China, and Russia. Unfortunately, in the process I was microchipped in my brain to allow the computer in the court room to read my thoughts and discover my true intention, for, if I was found by the “common criminals” and their European allies to be helping Russia, Russia (and its new allies) would lose the trial. The trial then continues until this day when complication occurred in the middle of 2010 and the European allies of the “common criminals” offered new evidences showing that I was indeed helping Russia. In the process, the scope of the trial has enlarged to such an extent that all the crimes which the Western alliance have committed against Russia and against Western citizens in the past two decades (commonly known as the “New World Order”) have been incorporated into the same trial for resolution once and for all, and the microchip implanted in my head has been reconfigured to allow the computer in the court room to remotely control me instead of just reading my thoughts. All my close contacts and tens of thousands of people in my environment and beyond, have also been microchipped to be remotely controlled in the same way, because we have to be controlled to produce the evidences needed for the prosecution of all the crimes in question. The trial has become a circus, and evidences are no longer gathered but are all artificially produced. This is my current predicament.
